Tommorow my two children go back to school into years 3 and 4. Not their first day of school, but in some ways it feels like it after being off for nearly half of the year. Whilst we all want to get back to some sort of normality and routine, I can’t pretend that I am not anxious and totally emotional about it. Yes it will be nice to get some time back to myself, but the truth is I will bloody miss them.
So, I thought I would do what I did with both of them on the eve of their first days of school and write them a letter. Partly for myself, but also for the kids to look back on in the future, to see how much I love them and how proud I am of them both.
Dear Isla and Oliver,
Tommorow is your first day back at school after being at home since March. Your uniforms are ironed and labelled for the morning, bags packed by the front door, and you’re both sleeping in your beds full of nerves and excitment.
I wanted you to know that I know you have both had your struggles this year, and that it’s OK. This year has been hard for us all in more than ways than one. But when I look back on it, I will do so fondly of the time we all got to spend together as a family. I will treasure the laughter, the walks, the scavenger hunts, the family games, the picnics, outside camping, lockdown birthdays, baking, doing more crafts together and the fabulous staycations we had. Never again will we have this time back, and I’m so glad that I got to spend it with you two.
Isla- my beautiful little princess. I know you get so worried and anxious sometimes, we all do. But my darling you don’t need to have the worries of the world on your shoulders. I know you are old enough to understand what’s going on, but it’s Mummy and Daddy’s job to worry for you. We will do everything to protect you from the world until you are old enough to face it, so you don’t need to be concerned. Just be the clever, crazy, fun loving little girl that you are. Enjoy school, and I know you will continue to excel in everything you do.
Oliver- my gorgeous little Ollipops. I know you’re worried about going into a new class and starting Key Stage 2, but don’t be. You big sister will be there to look out for you, as will all your friends. I know you think it will be hard and you’ll struggle, but darling you can do anything you put your mind to. Look how far you have come in the last 2 years! I think Class 2 will be the making of you and you will be the amazing little boy that you have always been.
Crazy hair for Comic Relief March 2019
So my babies, you are growing up so fast! I’m so proud of how you have coped and adapted this year with all the changes and uncertainty, and I know you will love going back to school. If you see mummy crying tommorow when you leave the house, just know it’s not tears of sadness, but tears of overwhelming joy and my heart is bursting with pride and love for you both.
I hope that you both have an amazing first day at school tomorrow, I’m sure you will. I can’t wait to hear all about it when you get home! I will miss you both more than you know.
Lots of love forever